16. July 2010 · 8 comments · Categories: blog · Tags: , , , ,

I often take Vermont’s healing powers for granted after living here 6 years. This particular summer has been one of the most beautiful–languid sunsets, layers upon layers of green mountains, fecund air and exploding gardens. Everything seems…happy.

Last night, I had dinner with my Dad. I’m usually filled with anxiety right before he arrives and the past seems to choke me in its grip. Now, I’m 40 years old. I know my strength. It’s taken many years to heal from childhood wounds. Yet when Dad arrives, it’s like I haven’t moved an inch. At least that’s the illusion, the imprint, my mind holds. I feel small. More »

21. April 2010 · Comments Off · Categories: blog · Tags: , , ,

I’m amazed at the amount of messages around me when I open my eyes. Here are some license plates & “random” writing from my recent mini-road trip:

Let it Be
In Everything Give Thanks
(splashed across the back of a VW Bug in cursive writing),
Life is Good
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BonnFemme
FtHpLov
Honor the Dead, Heal the Wounded, End the War
(the most appropriate…)

This was the 1st trip home after my Mom passed. I think she was with me all the way south…

22. February 2010 · 1 comment · Categories: blog · Tags: , ,

A close friend of mine commented that I was pretty vulnerable in my previous post about my Mom. So be it. It’s good to be open–and it’s never come easy for me. It’s a mix of reasons. I have Scorpio rising–and Scorpios are all about space and secrets. I’m not one to show grief in public. I do much better with warmth and pure rage.

But going through the process of losing my Mom has made me even more reflective. It’s exactly that: a process. More »