It can be difficult to sustain the level of engagement required in 2017. As much as I love tech, I require equal time away from it all. At least, that’s my goal (as I reach for my phone…)
I had lunch with friends and mentioned the silent retreat I’m attending later this year. 6 days of no phone, writing or talking — just “noble silence”. There’s something deeply familiar about this practice, though I’m sure I’ll suffer a length of panic before acceptance. A Gemini never likes to be trapped but god, I need to switch it off for a few days. My friends — who range from late 20s to 40s — longed for a break from real and online selves.
I have times of wanting to go off-grid (yes, I see the irony as I type this on a wireless iPad). I’m not anti-tech, as it is a form of telepathy. But sometimes no social media, no smartphone to tempt me to check IG 100x a day, no hustle. Just a quiet life in a cabin, surrounded by forest and meadows. Yet computers provide a community I would otherwise miss -living the rural life as I do – and my biz is nearly 100% online now.
So, what’s this woman to do?
I’m reminded of a past-life reading. Apparently, I was a French general (not Napoleon but a high-ranking official), seen as a hero but war and death had scarred me. I became a recluse in an attempt to reconnect with my soul. I reincarnated and — no surprise — became a cloistered nun. In subsequent lifetimes, I returned to Paris. When I visited in ’97 (strangely, the weekend Diana died), I wasn’t drawn to the city, though I still delight in the language and even had my book “Spirit, Flow” translated into “Esprit, Vole”.
I think the general in me is still trying to find peace. When I feel the urge to go off-grid, I check in with that lifetime. Am I escaping humanity? Do I need to punish myself?
I don’t think so. This time ’round has taught me to love this experience. Really being here, as much as I miss my crew beyond the veil. It’s a good compromise, living in VT and if the flow takes me elsewhere, I’ll keep a cabin for retreat. My heart is merged to this land and and it’s no wonder Mormons and others are buying acres in droves. Nobody does off-grid better than Vermonters.
Online and off-grid? Yes. Everything in balance: connection to Nature, rest, offering our gifts in service and engaging in the noble silence.