The other day a woman — probably mid-70s — sauntered into the Pyramid, asking about different types of Tarot decks. She dressed as though she was from “upper-crusty” New England — though she could have easily been a hippie way back when. It is Vermont, after all. I gave a few suggestions and she began an animated discussion with her husband.
She said over her shoulder, “I’m getting a deck for my 14 year old granddaughter. She’s interested in all of this stuff.” Her husband added, “Yes, you know. Occult and all that.” They chose a Rider-Waite deck and seemed very pleased.
I smiled and said, “I think it’s great that you are so supportive of your granddaughter, especially with the Tarot.”
The woman fluttered her hand and said, “Oh, yes. I would never restrict her from learning. I didn’t with my children, and I wouldn’t with her.” Then she looked straight at me and I took an inner step back. Her eyes were crystal blue, magnetic and vast. This was a powerful woman – and I wouldn’t be surprised if she once ruled countries or initiated women into magical practices.
So much of the struggle in accepting my intuitive gifts was being taught that it was wrong, sinful and dancing with the Devil. I bought into the fear without even having a chance to try the goods! I spent many years and thousands of dollars in therapy finding my way back to what I already knew. What I hungered for.
I have no regrets over how long it took me to find the Tarot — or the time spent healing and embracing my sensitive self. But I wonder how it would have made life easier if I had a grandmother like her when I was a teen. Maybe I wouldn’t have been so afraid of life and “unsaved” people. Maybe I’ve been more open-minded to how others embraced God/dess, rather than beating them over the head with the Bible. And maybe I would have learned to trust my natural-born gifts, rather than labeling life under a giant list of “right” and “wrong”, with wrong being everything I felt that wasn’t what I considered “godly”.
What I can do now is teach others how to embrace their gifts through my work with the Tarot. I may never have children, and that’s okay. There are many, many ways to create a legacy — and like this grandmother, I celebrate the freedom to explore, ask questions and expand our minds every day.
And if you are like these grandparents, I celebrate you — because you are making the lives of beautiful, sensitive souls that much easier (and we need all the help we can get on this giant rock).