It’s the space between creative bursts that can really get me in a bind.
Now that The Reluctant Tarot Reader has been cast into the world, it’s like my baby has gone off to college.
I don’t know whether she’ll return.
I don’t know how she’ll do.
What I do know is the time, effort and love I’ve put into the work. The words. What brought me to the place of beginnings — and what gave me the grace to finish.
It’s allowing new ideas of success to permeate the old one of x amount of copies sold = I’ve MADE it.
It’s the joy of the words strung together into gorgeous coherency.
It’s the happiness of: yes, I did this. And she’s beautiful.
Knowing that she was really never mine. We just shared space together.
Yet having all of this time — this space after she leaves — is . . . void-like.
What to do with it all?
Hang up my winter clothes?
Sweep the floors?
Go to the gym?
It’s not about writing. Not yet. Not a bigger work. I’m still letting go of TRTR, sending her off with blessings and a little bit of fear. Pride. Joy. There are murmuring and whisperings but nothing presses to be heard. Not yet. I don’t have the space for it.
But there is this need to fill, fill, fill. Fill the fear. Fill the not-knowing.
Truth be told, I’m kind of bereft. In a hopeful kind of way.
What next?
Something wonderful, I’m sure.
But right now? I’ve got dishes to do.
It sounds like a coda. Time for appreciating the effort to sculpt your ideas and weave them together into a whole. Time for some basking in the satisfaction of completion. Watching your creation take form like an iridescent bubble, closing its own sphere to float into the air on the energy of your breath. Take some time to listen to the chord progressions as they all come to resolution at the end of this effort. Allow the last notes to hang in the air, and take the time to breathe before the next music begins.
beautifully put, Vicki. <3
Perhaps its just time to do nothing and let the mind rest.
this is where my dream of the worker bee and spider comes into play. letting the creativity be still until it’s time and let go of the worker bee mentality. can be a bit of a tough dance!
From one worker bee to another…I totally hear ya on that.
Be proud of what you have accomplished while you begin another project you probably had on the back burner.
exactly!